Indecisiveness

This day next week I will officially be a Fashion Management Graduate.

That statement scares me senseless. For the sole reason I am incredibly indecisive and will have to start considering making some serious life altering decisions. With my Mam hounding me to 'come home and get a real job' and dreading what my fellow classmates are up to, it's fair to say I'm veering towards a nervous breakdown. I can only imagine the wonderfully exciting and glamorous internships some of the girls have bagged down in London...Whereas I'd have to save for a year just to become an intern and live there!

I suppose my Mam makes a fair point to move back home and save. I could put money aside to go travelling...get a placement in London...save more money...But it all comes back to that one minor detail - I would be living at home. I'd be taking a severe step back. I love my independence, I love my friends over here, my part-time job is surprisingly challenging for achieving monthly targets, and I want to hold onto my freedom while I'm young. The fact I can't drive also throws a spanner in the works even though Mam's new house is 5 minutes from town. Except that town will have nothing to offer me. I would have to commute to Dublin - on a bus/train/tram you're talking over 2 hours a day! And I distinctly remember being absolutely shattered doing that commute throughout my placement at a Buying Head Office.

I know what areas I enjoyed studying and what fields I would maybe like to pursue a career in. I just need time to narrow them down and sort out some internships. Is it really the end of the world to take a 'year out' and that time to make those decisions? I don't want to make the wrong choice but what exactly is the right one? I'm exhausted after 4th year and my job pays the rent so what's the real issue here? Fair enough, the majority of folk take a 'year out' to go travelling but I don't have that luxury. I'll have to take a year out to save and then travel. And surely I'll be somewhat wiser with what I intend to do with my life by then...

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